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I grew up in a Christian home, surrounded by people who loved Jesus. But I didn’t know much about Jesus. When people would talk about Him, I wouldn’t understand what they were saying. I got used to not talking about God and even started to find it difficult to talk about Him, even though I wanted to talk about Jesus with my friends and learn more about Him. What I’m saying is, I lack courage to share Him with the people I know. I think I only became aware who God really is a couple months ago. It was at Communion and there was a video about His story. It had been told to me many, many times, but that was the first time that I really understood His sacrifice. I started to understand some of the things I had not understood up until that point. I realized just how much God loves us: that He loves me when no one else does. And that’s why He’s so attractive to me, because He loves me. I don’t deserve His love, but He loves me anyways, for who I am. Sometimes it’s hard to follow Jesus because I’m scared. I’m scared that God will not approve of what I do and that He won't love me anymore. It's also hard at school, I have friends who don’t love God, and I’m scared that if I pray or talk about God in front of them, that I’ll be ‘the weird one’ and I want to be normal and love God. After my experience with communion, I started debating getting baptized. I told my mom, and she gave me a full on ‘YES!’ Then, all of a sudden, there was a ‘Journey Course’, and I thought, if anything would be pointing me in the direction of God, that would be it. I want to get baptized because I know that if no one will except me, He will. That He will always care for me, even when I sin. Sin makes a hole in me and Jesus is the only one who can fill it up; who can fill me up. When He fills me up, He’s teaching me about love: that if you truly love someone you would fill them up with love, joy, and happiness. I’m not the only one who He does that to, He does that to everyone, young and old, so that they will share Him.