Raw and Real

Published: June 14, 2022, midnight

b'Wandering, lost, and alone. How long have I been like this? My sins are against me, sapping my strength. Bones wasting away, I groan in agony. Those I had trusted in betrayed and enslaved me\\u2014quite honestly, my own evil heart enslaved me. This heart is as hard as stone, my transgressions heavy from the time of my birth.\\nHave mercy, God. Wash away my sins! Your love is great, your mercies are endless! I confess my evil ways, my tendency to roam, my search for meaning and satisfaction in everything that is not You.\\nWhat will I, this stubborn sheep who has strayed so far, offer my Shepherd? I know He will not turn me away when I come to Him\\u2014He will not despise a heart full of brokenness and sorrow for my sins. Create in me a heart of purity, my God! Make my heart steadfast; cover me with Your forgiveness. Remove my heart of stone and give me a heart of flesh!\\nMy Shepherd turns to me with love in His eyes, arms open wide. I hear Him whisper to my soul, \\xe2\\u20ac\\u0153I will gather you back\\u2026I will cleanse you from everything impure\\u2026I will give you a new heart, a new spirit\\u2026I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. Are you willing to lay down your idols?\\xe2\\u20ac\\x9d\\nI contemplate the things I once thought would fill me, those pseudo-gods. My soul aches with emptiness and longing, and I know\\u2014I know. \\xe2\\u20ac\\u0153Will it hurt?\\xe2\\u20ac\\x9d My voice is barely a whisper. Sorrow shines in His eyes. \\xe2\\u20ac\\u0153Yes. But I already endured the deepest pain for you.\\xe2\\u20ac\\x9d It is then that I notice the nail scars in His hands.\\nI nod, and He reaches deep. His hand finds my lifeless heart\\u2014a cold mess of hardened tissue, muscle, and valve. I gasp as He removes this mass of stone from my chest. I watch as the Shepherd covers my heart of stone with His nail-scarred hands. He breathes on those hands, my heart inside. Then, I hear it, the unbelievably sweet sound of a heart beating, deep and even. He opens His hands and therein lies a new heart\\u2014a heart of flesh. \\u2022 Savannah Coleman\\n\\u2022 Ezekiel prophesied that God would save His people through Jesus\\u2014He is the Good Shepherd who lays down His life for us, His sheep (John 10:11). What do you think it means that God will remove our heart of stone and give us a heart of flesh?\\n\\xe2\\u20ac\\u0153I will give them an undivided heart and put a new spirit in them; I will remove from them their heart of stone and give them a heart of flesh.\\xe2\\u20ac\\x9d Ezekiel 11:19 (NIV)\\n\\xa0\\nRead Verses:\\n1Sam.1.1-1Sam.1.20|Ps.88|Ps.62.8'