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Have you ever felt so alone, that it crippled you? The human experience can be so overwhelming, and i sympathize with anyone going through this. Here is something i wrote, called Unbearable. (Unbearable) Have you ever felt so alone? So alone you can’t breathe? Have you ever had a pain in your chest and heart, that goes so deep, you can’t imagine how it will ever go away. You dream of the day this pain will go away. In this moment, it hurts so much, you wish and pray for non existence. You never imagined a human being was capable of feeling this much pain. And it’s not a pain like cutting your finger, or breaking your arm. It’s a kind of pain that’s so deep it seems to have no end to it. I miss the days where i could take a deep breath and feel ok. I can hardly breathe anymore. Every time i try, it hurts too much to breathe, it hurts too much to do anything. I wish so much i could feel so connected to someone, that this feeling of being alone goes away. I wish i could hold someone so close to me, that we feel as if we’re one. It feels like i’m floating through infinite space, alone, just me in an infinite void that never ends. How i dream of a day where i’m so close to someone, that this feeling goes away. As i write this, i just can’t believe a human is capable of feeling something this intense. It’s so over powering, that i can’t breathe, and the pain in my heart and chest is unbearable. The human experience can be filled with so much joy and beauty, i know this. What i wonder is, will i ever have enough of this joy and beauty, to make the pain go away. Cause it hurts so bad, its hurts to breathe, it hurts to walk, it hurts to exist. It’s unbearable.