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I have no idea how to even start writing about this. As a musician, filmmaker and aspiring comedian, who has always done poorly in school and has never kept a "real job" for more than 2 months. I definitely never felt like I belonged here. Most people would define my worth by how many people listen to my music, how many people have seen my films, how many views I get on YouTube or how much money I make. If these were the factors by which I was defined, you might say "stay in school" or "get a job". But this is what I came here for. I feel like I am living my divine purpose when I produce a podcast and 12 people listen, or play a live show with 7 people attending, or even writing these posts when a handful of people read them. The scale doesn't matter to me, I do this because it is who I am. Because when I hear someone tell me that what I do has made their life even just a little bit more positive, I can die happy. I approached a good friend of mine with this dilemma, wondering what I should do, should I move away, should I stay here, should I stop this and focus on that, etc. He said one thing that reminded me of who I really am: "Remember this, there is no wrong way to live life". He proceeded to mention that he is not attending college, he works a 9 to 5 job, he occasionally live streams video games on the internet, cleans his house and he loves his life! Most would point out that he is going nowhere with his life, but there's one thing he has that most people don't when it comes to purpose: PEACE OF MIND. He is not concerned with living up to the expectations of others. Start with peace, and make your life decisions from that place. Most of my life decisions have been made while meditating, reflecting on my life and banishing all judgments, labels, and expectations. I notice that "Cameron" will only live once, and I do have the choice to do the things that make my heart full, rather than the things that make me look good. I notice there is no wrong way to live my life. I don't owe anyone anything in this life, I have my free will and I can choose to follow any path I desire. I'm not saying start a gang and rob banks, I'm saying, you don't have to follow a certain career path because your environment pushed you to do so. Don't give up on your dream because someone else told you that it is meaningless.  I grew up playing drums and guitar every single day, for hours. At age 10 my brother and I decided to start a band with a school friend of his. By the time I was 11 we played our very first live show and I was being praised as this 11-year-old drummer. Later the same year, we recorded our first album in a top studio in Toronto. Until the age of 17, I had played hundreds of shows, release 4 CD's with this band, made countless memories and met so many amazing people along the way. My entire identity and worth as a human being was attached to the fact that I was a drummer in a band. I found myself depressed and stressed because of the limitations and expectations placed on me. I wanted to branch off, make YouTube videos, get into filmmaking and other things. I was told that I needed to focus less on those things and the band was more important. I had thoughts of quitting the band, I knew it would upset so many people but at this time, pleasing people and looking good as a drummer took a back seat to feeling happy and excited about my life. When I finally made the decisions, people did not believe that I was serious. This band was our lives and it seemed like we would never give up. A lot of my friends and family were extremely disappointed but I was so happy! I decided what was best for me. I decided to take this risk and pursue other things. I took matters into my own hands and it has proven to have been the greatest decision of my life. I can list off the worldly things I have created since then, but the most important thing is I am happy. I am truly truly at peace.

@humbowlspiritual