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\nMany of us have grown up immersed in a culture that teaches us to be anywhere but 'here'... to feel an emptiness we imagine we must fill from outside ourselves, to pursue what takes us far from our most genuine needs, to hide from one another the effect that doing so has on us. Turning back towards our own lives isn't easy, but it always begins with a choice not to continue to abandon ourselves and, with some simple attention and care towards one another, it is something we can help one another with.
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\nThis week's Turning Towards Life is a conversation about ways we can be of profound support to each other in choosing our lives, hosted as always by Lizzie Winn and Justin Wise of Thirdspace.
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\nThis is Turning Towards Life, a weekly live 30 minute conversation hosted by Thirdspace in which Justin Wise and Lizzie Winn dive deep into big questions of human living. Find us on FaceBook to watch live and join in the lively conversation on this episode. You can find videos of every episode, and more about the project on the Turning Towards Life website, and you can also watch and listen on Instagram, YouTube, and as a podcast on Apple, Google and Spotify.
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\nHere's our source for this week:
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\nFast Forward\xa0\n\nThe awkwardness of this silence.\nLet me fill the space with whatever. Any nonsense is better than this.\nThe sinking shame of a mistake.\nLet me make all the \u2018sorry\u2019 or 'back off' noises. Move the spotlight from my disgrace.\nThe dread of beginning again.\nLet me delay just one more day\u2026\nThe nagging need I won\u2019t admit.\nNetflix! Ebay! What\u2019s App!\nA prospect dashed by disappointment.\n\u2018I\u2019m fine. I\u2019m fine.\u2019\n(Oh God, I wish I was fine.)\nAnd then there are moments,\nQuiet still moments\nBefore my itchy finger can hit the button.\nI realise that fast forward isn\u2019t doing what it promised.\nI\u2019m still here.\nDoubts still perched on my shoulder.\nFear still churning my gut.\n3-year-old me still wailing in my throat.\nOne day, curiosity calls before the dread.\nI peel off the 'fast forward' sticker from the button.\nThere it is in faded red letters...\n\u2018Abandon Yourself.\u2019\nThe betrayal is complete.\nMaybe this time will be different.\nIf I can just stay still for a moment longer\nI can resist the easy fix.\nIf I can gather up that shaking part of myself and tell her,\n\u2018It\u2019s okay. I\u2019m here. Let\u2019s feel it all together\u2026\u2019\nNot to abandon.\nTo be my own companion.\nMaybe this time,\nI can choose.\n\nBy Debbie Danon
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\nHere\u2019s a link to the poem on Debbie\u2019s website: https://www.debbiedanon.com/blog/fast-forward\n