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Tonight's special guest is Patty Rhyne from Antioch, California, a returning NAASCA family member. She's a survivor of sexual, physical and emotional abused by multiple men over the course of her life. "My abuse started when I was only 4 years old. My first abuser began by grooming me," she writes. By 7 his sexual abuse was happening every day. Her mother regularly neglected her. "CPS was called on my mom many times, but nothing ever came from it." Patty's mom began working for her abuser at his bar. "It's hard to put into words what he did to me, but it involved engaging in all kinds of sexual things, and also filming me and making me watch with him." Her abuser was very wealthy. "When he was with me, someone was paying attention to me and making me feel 'loved'. It was a no-win situation." Patty explains, "My abuse went on for 22 years. It even continued after I got married at age 16." At 26 she learned her mother had made a financial arrangement with her abuser, effectively selling Patty to him. "For so many years I have been seeped in the deepest, darkest feelings of shame possible. I learned to stay silent and just block it all out." Patty automatically assumed that others would hurt, manipulate, use, disappoint, abandon, reject or judge her. Therapy started to help. "One of the best things is that it allows me to be my true self. In therapy, I can be whoever and however I need to be - with no judgment!" Patty's hopeful now. "I want to let go of the shame and blame that doesn't really belong to me anyway." She's all about awareness. "People need to know that it happens – not just to poor kids, or rich kids or black or white kids, but to kids everywhere."