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Hopefully the title is loud enough for you, because this episode is exactly that; I don't wanna play no games. After entering the "dating world" if you will, I realized that there are so many rules and games that I didn't know existed. Even after knowing, I've decided that they just aren't for me. Trying to always be a step ahead, mimicking \xa0emotional avoidance so that I convince myself I don't care either, maintaining mountains of secrecy and pettiness, made me feel as though I was slowly changing who I am all in the name of the game. I simply could not keep up and I really didn't want to. Besides, it makes no sense to me to make these (unproductive might I add,) adjustments for a person I'm not romantically interested in. All this energy for a "TALKING STAGE"? I think not! If I wouldn't do this in any other scenario or relationship, why start here? The "benefits" just didn't seem like enough to keep compromising myself for. So, while seeing the bigger picture, I decided in the tune of Chris Brown + Drake's No Guidance that, "I don't wanna play no games."

August 24, 2020