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(blob painting): sometimes I like it when my executive functions drop. I can like being over stimulated, sometimes it\u2019s funny and confusing. I can get sound to touch synesthesia; it can tickle me in weird places, like my organs.\n---\nIt\u2019s nice to show myself without a mouth when I can\u2019t talk. With no eyes, when I can\u2019t process the visual information I\u2019m getting. With no head, when I can\u2019t catch a thought or remember what\u2019s happening. And all the hands when I\u2019m doing so much sensing.\nI tried to show you my mystical blob body.\n\nWhen I look in the mirror this is what I think I will see. My beautiful monstrous form. I\u2019m always surprised by my reflection when I see a human looking back at me.\n\nThis is my body dysmorphia\u2019s morphic form.\n\nWhen you have been dehumanised, you can choose to reclaim not feeling human as a beautiful identity. That\u2019s not very popular with the humanistic far left, but it works for me. I don\u2019t want to be \u201cothered\u201d. I can never be your equal, as long as I am the other. No one can ever be anyone\u2019s equal. Structural dehumanisation can feel like a group with pitchforks is coming for you, simultaneously feeling like a monster. I love feeling like an ethical monster. Safe to those who love me, like a wolf mother to her puppies. And feeling my metaphoric fur.\n\nConcept & Artwork: Mishka