Just Cant Keep It Inside
b"Episode #176: Just Can't Keep It Inside\\xa0 (Song at 4.06)\\nJust can\\u2019t keep it inside sounds like it was written by another song writer. \\nIt didn\\u2019t surprise me when it came through though. Every now and then a song in this sort of \\u2018soft ballad with a swung rhythm style\\u2019 comes through for me.\\nI haven\\u2019t thought of this song for a long time. It\\u2019s from my first book, song number 62, written in 1987, in New Zealand.\\nAfter writing it, I played the song from time to time over the next decade, but I just sort of didn\\u2019t have a use for it. I couldn\\u2019t imagine what I\\u2019d do with it. It didn\\u2019t fit in with 80s music for a live gig, that\\u2019s for sure.\\n\\nAlso, this: there was one line that I didn\\u2019t like. One line and I let the song get buried for what 36 years. Ha. Oh dear.\\n\\nMany times on this podcast I\\u2019ve spoken of the need to be free enough to let go of certain parts of a song and rewrite. For some reason, I never did with this line.\\n\\nThe line that didn\\u2019t sit with me was: \\u2018while you step on my broken heart and grind it In The ground.\\u2019 Yeek ! A little bit gruesome, wouldn\\u2019t you say.. and the words just don\\u2019t fit the gentle ballad. They might be at home in the middle of a ( really) angry rocker, but not here.\\n\\nAs I recorded the song for this episode, an answer floated in on the breeze: \\u2018while you step on my heart. And that all just reminds me.how I can\\u2019t expect you\\u2026\\u2019\\n\\nAnd just like that, like the wave of a magic wand, it was fixed.\\n\\nI\\u2019m only partly joking about the magic wand. This creative realm comes up with some amazing stuff in the twinkling of an eye. What was broken is now fixed\\u2026and I can share this song now.\\n\\nRecording these episodes has been a really good thing for me to do (that\\u2019s what I think right now). Why not put these songs here? Sure, they could be making me some money streaming online\\u2026on a paid service.\\nI\\u2019m thinking eventually some well. Actually, a lot already are streaming, I\\u2019ve featured songs that I\\u2019ve previously recorded and released.\\n\\nIt just struck me a s thing to do, a few years a go - and here we are.\\n\\nI mention something at the beginning of this episode, something along the lines of: \\u2018you imagine something and you create a version of it\\u2019 That is the creative process.\\n\\nI couldn\\u2019t help myself when I recorded the version as part of this episode, I stopped and added bass with a ride cymbal, Rhodes and a very rudimentary strings sketch - suggested orchestration.\\n\\nWhat happens when you give something form is: you create momentum\\u2026and that leads on to the next bit ( eg verse to chorus, and so on, with the actual writing process).\\n\\nWith the recording process, you start to hear other possible elements. A low subtle trio of horns interjecting the vocals would be nice\\u2026. maybe one day.\\n\\nFor now, you have the sketch that I winged as I sat at the mic and piano in my home studio, where I record these podcast episodes.\\n\\nIt\\u2019s such good fun, and I\\u2019m discovering it\\u2019s been very helpful to have my piano at the ready, to demonstrate what I\\u2019m trying to put into words.\\n\\nJust Can\\u2019t Keep It Inside came about when I was younger. My first big romantic relationship had just ended. I was casting about at the time for different songs styles. I did have a style, but at this stage I guess I was fairly unsettled and it took me a while to calm down.\\n\\nMusic is such a healing force. Putting ego aside and letting the creativity lead the way is such a healing thing to do, potentially.\\n\\nAnd the rewards keep growing. Sure, it\\u2019s great to write a song like this. But it\\u2019s even better when you keep rediscovering it, performing it slightly differently and then you think of more you could add\\u2026\\n\\nOk hope you enjoy this episode as much as I enjoyed recording it.\\n\\nHere\\u2019s my blog www.petepascoe.wordpress.com with lots of links to my music and art, lyrics to the songs on this podcast, etc. I\\u2019m a painter as well. I\\u2019m about to paint a seascape as I listen back to this episode and master it ready to put online."