Inside
b'Episode #178:\\xa0 Inside\\xa0 \\xa0(Song starts at 4:21)\\nThis episode\\u2019s song is #630, written in August, 2015. It was one of those \\u2018words first, music second\\u2019 sort of songs.\\nIt\\u2019s interesting this song should float to the surface for this episode\\u2026this week I had a bit of a wobbly moment, we all have them: I was wondering how much would it really have changed things, had I stayed in NZ\\xa0 (at 30 I moved to Melbourne and started again).\\nSelf doubt was the feeling that caused me to pick up a pen in 2015. A couple of things happen when you\\u2019re in the creative flow. The worries fall away, any murky worrying feelings seem to lift. On this occasion, an answer appeared on the ether, \\u2018inside\\u2019.\\nSo the answer can be found within - that\\u2019s been said many times. I was just thinking of the great movie Shawshank Redemption, how the small rock pick was hidden inside the bible. Brilliant ..freedom lies within.\\nI\\u2019m not one to jump on a soapbox and speak my mind to one and all. I\\u2019m far more inclined to drop big themes into my lyrics in a more laidback manner.\\nWhich is why, for these words, I thought I\\u2019d pick a key that would suit a quietly finger picked guitar.\\nMid way through, t sort of came the full circle, back to piano, when I improvised a far more keyboard sort of a bridge, with counter bass. Notes with strong harmonies\\u2026perhaps they\\u2019ll be vocal harmonies\\nMost often the chords come to me intuitively. I was doing my usual thing, when I came to the point where the chorus needed to happen.\\nI\\u2019m very pleased I stopped and checked my \\u2018relative chords\\u2019, which I\\u2019d written down before I started the music. The chord G# minor had net been used yet. So I stopped and matched a melody note with the chord and put the sung note right on the first count of the bar.\\nIt\\u2019s all a learning curve, life. We are all going to have our doubts, this song is suggesting the listener might consider go ing within to find some answers.\\nWhen I was a youngster, I took a less trodden path. A creative one. And I\\u2019m pleased I did. I\\u2019m still on it. If I\\u2019d taken a more expected path, (There\\u2019s a line in the song:) \\u2018would the lone cry of nature still call to me?\\u2019\\nLeading a creative lifestyle, being fully reliant on the arts to make a living, sure has its uncertain moments. It keeps you on your toes. You\\u2019re effectively \\u2018living in faith\\u2019, I would say.\\nSo I find peace when I go out in nature - and when I go within. So that\\u2019s the quiet message in this song\\u2026 you know, so if you\\u2019re in pain, life\\u2019s not going great for a moment, go for walk at the beach or sit down and just breathe easily, freedom awaits\\u2026\\nI hope you enjoy this episode. I certainly enjoyed recording my thoughts and I had fun rediscovering \\u2018Inside\\u2019, as I recorded the piano vocal demo.\\nHere\\u2019s my blog: www.petepascoe.wordpress.com you can read the lyrics here, plus there\\u2019s lots of art\\xa0 -and\\xa0 way more music, each week\\u2026. Enjoy!'