I CAN BE PATIENT AS LONG AS I DON’T HAVE TO WAIT!
I CAN BE PATIENT AS LONG AS I DON’T HAVE TO WAIT!
Patience is not my strong suit!
I am an overachiever with a Type A personality.
I think this is most lawyers or for sure 100% trial lawyers. We live for that courtroom high!
I set goals and am constantly learning and wanting to improve my life.
YET...when I want something I want it YESTERDAY!
Does that sound familiar?
Whatever I do I go all out. If I say I am going to do something you don’t have to worry it will more than likely be done before the deadline.
Things like
~ training for a 5K
~ Releasing weight and getting healthy
~ making a certain income.
So I would plant the seed and I am constantly looking in the ground to see if it has started to grow yet. Is the crop ready, why not, do I need more fertilizer, do we need more sunshine? Why isn’t it growing? Is it growing YET??? UGH!!!!
Maybe this is my training that causes me to look and seek out answers yet none the less I have learned that this is not working.
There have been 2 big things in LIFE THAT I HAVE WANTED MORE THAN I WANTED TO BREATHE.
One was to be married and the second was to be a mother.
Neither of those has happened in my time frame.
It seemed like no matter what I did my wishes, hopes and dreams just weren’t coming true!
Everyone around me was getting married and having a baby and all I could think about was I JUST WANT TO PUNCH YOU IN THE FACE!
I wanted to be happy for my friends yet deep down inside I was jealous and thinking...
* Why not me?
* What did I do wrong?
* What lesson do I still need to learn?
I just wanted the cliff notes in order to know whether it would be worth it in the end.
I had to be open to what might be and to what might never be and could I be ok with it no matter the result.
I remember being asked that question what happens if it doesn’t EVER HAPPEN!
I remember not even being able to say those words...in fact, I almost threw up at the thought let alone saying them out loud.
After a HUGE piece of work, with a horse called Jack, I was able to finally SURRENDER to the DREAM!
AWW surrender something that wasn’t in my vocabulary as a type A personality and high overachiever.
That meant that I was giving up...RIGHT!
WRONG it just meant that I had to come to peace and allow the process to unfold and to let go of CONTROL.
Control let go what do you mean I had been white-knuckling it my whole life.
Can you relate to that feeling thinking your in control?
Well, I was quickly shown that control is just an illusion. I have heard that when you tell God your plans he just laughs and clearly, he was laughing once again at me and my thoughts.
As a result of this piece of work with Jack,
I was able to get real, heal and SURENDER TO THE DREAM!
What are you white-knuckling thinking you are in control? Share what seeds you have planted yet are not patient enough to let grow?
#OUT~LAW #witherswhisper