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Published: Nov. 1, 2021, 10 a.m.

**Recorded on 9/11/2021

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I want to warn you all that the format of today\u2019s episode is a little bit outside of the usual box. Most of the time, you guys hear me interviewing other people, but in this interview, the roles are flipped. 

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After receiving some feedback from a listener, I was forced to reflect. I haven\u2019t been completely candid or forthcoming with you guys about my background and experiences, and that serves as proof that I have not fully healed. And it doesn\u2019t sit right with me to preach about the importance of mental health and healing if I\u2019m avoiding parts of my own development. With the help of Scott Carson, a past guest on the podcast, I decided to address an issue that has been plaguing me for my whole life, and that issue is the shame, embarrassment, and side effects that I\u2019ve experienced from my home life growing up. I\u2019ve hidden this part of myself from others for so long and have never really told the story of my upbringing. After listening to the recording a few times, I wish that I had covered more, but this is at least a start. Our conversation was 100% authentic and off-the-cuff as it was from a weekly call that I do with Scott to catch up and address my personal challenges. 

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The main thing that I talked about in this interview is the role of my father in my development. He had been involved in a large portion of my life, but as of the time that I\u2019m recording this I will say that it has been about a year and a half to 2 years since I\u2019ve had any sort of a relationship with him. At first it was difficult, but after therapy and multiple months without any real contact, it was something I learned to live with. From the reflection that I had done as well as the feedback that I had gotten from those that support me, it seems as though it was the best outcome for both of us. I don\u2019t bring these things up to shame him, but I do think that painting a picture of my perception of him gives you all major insights into what I am fixing within myself and why the work I do on this platform is so important to me. 

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This episode will give you guys a better idea of who I am and what shaped me. In future episodes, I plan to touch more on how I believe my experiences with my father affected me psychologically, bring light to the positives that came from our past relationship, and I\u2019ll also make sure to address the role of my mother in my development, good and bad. I know this might be tough to listen to since I\u2019m obviously not the most captivating speaker, especially when I\u2019m discussing uncomfortable topics, but I hope you guys like me enough as a host to listen in full and try to understand who I am.

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