Traci Brimhall | "Oh Wonder"

Published: Jan. 11, 2022, 11 p.m.

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In this episode of the Get Lit Minute, your weekly poetry podcast, we spotlight the life and work of poet, Traci Brimhall. Her poems have appeared in The New Yorker, Poetry, and New England Review, among others. Some of her work has also been featured on Poetry Daily, Verse Daily, Best of the Net, PBS Newshour, and Best American Poetry 2013 & 2014. Source

This episode includes a reading of her poem,\\xa0 "Oh Wonder", featured in our 2021 Get Lit Anthology.

"Oh Wonder"

It\\u2019s the garden spider who eats her mistakes

at the end of day so she can billow in the lung

of night, dangling from an insecure branch\\xa0

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or caught on the coral spur of a dove\\u2019s foot

and sleep, her spinnerets trailing radials like

ungathered hair. It\\u2019s a million pound cumulus.\\xa0

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It\\u2019s the stratosphere, holding it, miraculous. It\\u2019s

a mammatus rolling her weight through dusk

waiting to unhook and shake free the hail.\\xa0

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Sometimes it\\u2019s so ordinary it escapes your notice\\u2014

pothos reaching for windows, ease of an avocado

slipping its skin. A porcelain boy with lamp-black\\xa0

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eyes told me most mammals have the same average

number of heartbeats in a lifetime. It is the mouse

engine that hums too hot to last. It is the blue whale\\u2019s\\xa0

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slow electricity\\u2014six pumps per minute is the way

to live centuries. I think it\\u2019s also the hummingbird

I saw in a video lifted off a cement floor by firefighters\\xa0

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and fed sugar water until she was again a tempest.

It wasn\\u2019t when my mother lay on the garage floor

and my brother lifted her while I tried to shout louder\\xa0

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than her sobs. But it was her heart, a washable ink.

It was her dark\\u2019s genius, how it moaned slow enough

to outlive her. It is the orca who pushes her dead calf\\xa0

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a thousand miles before she drops it or it falls apart.

And it is also when she plays with her pod the day

after. It is the night my son tugs at his pajama\\xa0

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collar and cries: The sad is so big I can\\u2019t get it all out,

and I behold him, astonished, his sadness as clean

and abundant as spring. His thunder-heart, a marvel\\xa0

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I refuse to invade with empathy. And outside, clouds

groan like gods, a garden spider consumes her home.

It\\u2019s knowing she can weave it tomorrow between\\xa0

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citrus leaves and earth. It\\u2019s her chamberless heart

cleaving the length of her body. It is lifting my son

into my lap to witness the birth of his grieving.

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