The Fear of Influence
When I was 18 years old I had my brain mapped.
It was the summer after my freshman year of college. I was somewhat beaten down after a rough transition to the autonomous mode of collegiate study. Focus and attention had always been a challenge for me, but I had generally been bright enough to get by. Failing calculus in my first semester was a massive recalibration. For the first time in my life, I had fallen behind and was struggling to catch up.
My mother’s friend was a Counselor who employed the use of neurofeedback, a therapy where the recipient receives biofeedback illustrating and (hopefully) improving brain activity. I didn’t love the idea of having my brain mapped or changed. It seemed like a biological rewiring which would fundamentally change who I was. With no real collegiate focus or passion outside of a general desire to be somebody, my extraverted (read: attention seeking) personality felt like the entire essence of who I was. Possibly having it changed seemed catastrophic.
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