Hey is unique that we have the chance to go back like the scientist and in the workshop inside our laboratory and look at our drinking histories with pure honesty and sobriety sober they could show that years before we knew it and we realize we're out of control and that there's no there's no help but there was help and we couldn't get there even though we knew that there are agencies out there that would direct us to 12 step programs but our drinking was no mere have it it was indeed in a fatal obsession I'm thankful for my attorney and the judge that sent me to Alcoholics Anonymous and any of the abuse I was 28 years ago